I like to be in detail. And I demand others to provide me details when they are associating with me. Party, Work, Studies…. EVERYTHING basically.

I feel more organised by having details. Because only this way, then I can make myself work better with others. And I believe compromising can be done better with details. I want to have details so I can plan what I want to do and how in a better way.

My ex is totally a disorganised person and he didn’t meet my requirement or demand in this particular aspect. It drove me nuts most of the time. Because of his lack of organisation and details, I found it hard to compromise with his time and organise myself as well. Thus, thats when shits happened following with arguments and conflicts.

“What?! You never say also!”
“….er…er…..You SHOULD know mah!”
“That’s why! When I ask, you should tell me the details!”

Damn it. All he can said was ‘You should know’? As far as I know, our relationship had not gone that far where we can communicate telepathically. Bleh. No wonder this relationship never works.

I dont know la. We broke up but we still behave like normal couples. We basically do things together like last time. Just that things are better because I don’t fucking care what he thinks and I just do and say whatever I want. I am protecting myself, I guess. I used to keep things inside me to avoid having disagreements with him. Now, I just let it all out. I have nothing to lose anymore. Thus, I think this has resulting him to treat me better and respect me more than last time. He cares more about me and pay more attention on me now. I’m enjoying. Who doesn’t like attention? But I dont really care about him. Well, to be precise is I got no more feelings on him anymore. Both of us just let things be and no one is suggesting reconciliation. Guess both of us aware things will go back the same if we do. So might as well just stay in this status. It feels better. A lot actually.

So it’s freaking complicated.

He’s leaving next year. I need to start getting used of his absence. But frankly speaking, I think he is more dependant on me than I am to him. He is a very indecisive person and when he does decide, I guarantee you it will be a bad one. ;)

Ah well, tmr last paper. And I have planned so many things to do for my coming holidays!

    Currently listening to Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful while munching Jacobs.