Just finished watching The Break-up by Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaungh. The part where he promised to go to the concert with her but in the end didn’t made me cried. It’s just so us. You never understand the point of doing things together as a couple. It’s not about doing things that I like.
You never learn to appreciate me. Vaungh in the movie reminds me of you. You just didn’t care. We are not talking to each other anymore, I think. I just don’t like the idea of you asking about my current status right after saying hello. You were acting like a jerk sometimes and you are still. It’s just funny when I wonder back then what made me think that I can change you. Silly me. So, I promise myself there will be no second time that same thing will happen again. I don’t deserve those from you.
I am serious when I said I want you to get out of my life. I just can’t help not to scrutinize every word you say, to protect myself from your favourite habit of taking advantage and taking me for granted. It’s quite sad that when I look back at our relationship, all I can think of that it was ugly. I didn’t ask for perfect but just an honest and sincere relationship. I used to think that I’m not a Virgo but I started to act like one by asking too much from you and picking out the flaws. But then, I remember I kept all that within myself and asked for an equal, healthy give and take relationship from you. I did all I could but it was only one-sided effort.
It has been a while since I last wrote about you/us. Even though it’s roughly the same thing I have wrote for god knows how many times, but I still feel this way about us until now. Hope the next one will be a longer period later or there will not be next time.
