I know it’s silly to say that I think our relationship was flawed because one of the many reasons was your ex. I just can’t go on because I know deep down inside how much you actually care about her.

That’s why the only solution is to find another guy and live happily ever after.

I’m not a perfectionist. But when it comes to relationships (including friendship), I just can’t bear any flaw. I can’t just go on and say to A, “Ok, I forgive you and let’s be friends again.” It doesn’t work that way for me. When things aren’t right anymore, they would never be.

But the thing is, I’m not angry anymore. I just can’t start all over again. It’s like I know it happened quite long time ago, and I don’t really mind anymore. I don’t hold any anger at her anymore. But we will never be friends again.

It’s not about the issue of forgiveness. It’s about trusting others. I trust people easily. But once they do something that really hurt me and abuse the trust, I will never accept them anymore. Same thing applied to the relationship with him and friendship with her.

What’s not there, it’s gone forever. I’m that stubborn. I know.