Documentary of Charleybean

Recently, Lazy has a minor skin infection on his tail. So there are some red spots here and there. His tail’s fur also fallen off. The new groomer that we went to was very nice to apply this japanese branded gel, which she reckoned to be very effective, on Lazy for free. That one small bottle costs RM67.00. With that amount I can buy 6 packs of tuna flavoured Whiskas for the fat cat. But I really like their services, very caring and concerned. So I’m planning to send Lazy to them for boarding as I will not be available during CNY. One of my friends suggested to send Lazy over to a vet nearby, which to be honest, I don’t really feel comfortable with. It’s just different. Somemore with the skin infection, I will be less worry if Lazy is under the groomer’s care.

Anyway, the infection is due to unhygienic environment. So right after we got home from the groomer, I straight away cleaned up Lazy’s small garden/space, brushed the floor and fed him well. He’s one lucky pet, isn’t it?

To avoid possible disturbance and annoyance that might occur at home, I offered to drop my roommate at her college early morning, had breakfast and headed to Starbucks to kill my time by studying.

5 1/2 hours to go before fetching roommate from college.

Incredibly, almost fall asleep in Starbucks while listening to my chemical romance. Apparently, all the shouting never really help to keep me awake.

So 2 hours later, I decided to go shopping.

And time really flies. So many clothes yet so little time!

Bought a Rougeberry perfume (never know what’s a rougeberry thou, just know that it smells really nice!), love it! And got myself two pants.

Happy!

Thursday gonna drag my roommate to shop with me!

I want bags!

Finally I teared.

after repeating the same thing so many times while holding back my tears.

Finally, when I’m back in my room.

Where everyone has slept.

My tears found the exit.

I don’t need a hug or kiss.

I just want somebody or anyone to understand.

Since the person that I hoped he would, will never understand.

So yeah.

The only thing missed is I haven’t got a chance to slap u really hard on the face yet.

Questions:
how can you expect things will be fine when you are doing completely nothing to keep things ok?
how can you say you want to do it right then turn around and said you don’t know what should you do?
how can I, who is such a gem, wasted two years on you?
and in turn, how can you never be able to appreciate me, who is such a gem?
how can you just don’t do anything?
how can you just say you couldn’t help it?
how can you wanting to try and yet never really did?
how can you just leave everything and walk away?
how can I have trusted you at the first place, after so many times?

and how can you don’t love me at all?