Reached Pontian around 6.30pm. Dad’s friend picked me up and we went for a drink with his family. He is the uncle who helped my father handled the little kancil after my dad left Johor.
So I finally got the car!
But dammit it’s so difficult to drive coz it’s not power sterling and I’m not used to the gear. Plus I stepped on the brake thinking it’s the cluth. So need time to get used to it.
Stress… hahaha
But finally I get my own car!
Do you understand?
Do you all really understand?
I just want him to get out of my life.
Simple as that. So stop asking ‘Are you ok?’, coz right now I just want to disappear for a while.
All of you will never understand coz only I know how I feel about the whole thing. Because only I know what happened between us. Because only I have the every right to feel sad, mad, hurted, betrayed and heartbroken. Even he will never understand how I feel coz he never did from the beginning of the relationship.
He is just an irresponsible bastard for doing this to me and now, to another girl. The reason things didn’t work out never stop him from repeating the same mistakes over and over again. He doesn’t learn and he never will from the rate he is going right now.
Now I know why I am so angry. Mainly because he never learns and acting irresponsibly.
I kept asking myself, WHY? Why he never learn? Why he never understand? How could he do this to me?
And now, I ask, Why am I doing this to myself? Why I never learn?
